Working on the clean out...

Hey guys!

So I wanted to take a few minutes to kind of vent. The other day, in preparation for the upcoming gluten and dairy free home, I organized our cabinets into safe and bad foods. I couldn't believe the amount of things we had hidden in the cabinet that need to go.

We can't afford to give away or throw away most of these items. So, I'm trying to use them up and not buy anything else with gluten or dairy. It has been very difficult. I'm already having panic spells about it. Sometimes I feel myself just pacing back and forth between the living room and the kitchen. I know we're not "off" yet and I'm already having issues.

Did I expect these feelings? Yes... If you haven't read my previous blogs or seen vlogs on my issues, I have hard issues with panic and anxiety. I did the same thing when I started my journey with A Year Without Soda. (Which btw we're 5 days away from 3 months! or 90 days!!!!)

I think that dropping sodas and what I've been through with that has prepared me for the upcoming battle. I know this battle is going to be like carrying a boulder up a steep hill. The exercise won't be the issue (I don't think.) The issue is going through withdraw from all of these products. I used my last bit of coffee yesterday. From now on...decaf only.

I just keep repeating to myself that this is for our health. This is so we can take control of our life. I'm working so incredibly hard mentally to stay positive.

Although, it was very pleasing tonight when I made some vegan pumpkin scones and my kiddos kept coming back for more!!! I made some really little ones for them so it was okay to have a couple. It lets me know that my kids can eat vegetables and be happy. My kids can be happy on a healthy food diet (I don't mean diet as in lose weight...I mean diet as in what we eat.).

A lot of the problems I've had in the past with me trying to lose weight is not knowing how to deal with feeding my children different. My kids do not need to be calorie restricted. And yes! I'm a very picky Mom! My kids loved when we were juicing...but they can't just juice. It was expensive to buy different meals and I am not a short order cook.

So with this lifestyle change, I think the whole family will see the benefit. I am trying to stay excited and keep positive.

We still have a way to go. It'll be much better for my son who can't have dairy because he's lactose intolerant. It can help my husband and I stick around for our children's lives and feel great and be able to do great things with them. I'm struggling mentally, but I think in a few weeks of transitioning I'll be fine. Or at least I hope so. I'm ready to get started and get the hard part over with. LOL <3

I hope you are all doing well out there. Are you having any struggles you'd like to share? Leave them in the comment section below and I'll bust out my pom poms and cheer you on! <3

Sending lots of love and peace to you and your journey.

-Ami M. Lee, Journey on the Final Countdown